Where do you go to escape from the turmoil of the world? I go home. Childhood home. Of course it boils there too. But it boils in a different language, about different matters although with familiarity from the past. We know our childhood homes so well. We know what to expect of them and, who knows, maybe it is this predictability of the place and language that makes it easier for us to truly rest and listen.
I tend to find myself when I’m in the unchanging landscape of my little village, in its stability. The fields, the trees, the meadows, the orchards, the forest nearby – they are always there ready to embrace me as I am. Ready to welcome me as me.
It’s a powerful sensation. Me as me.
In a world that demands constant change. In a world that asks for continuous development and seduces us with better versions of ourselves it is really difficult to appreciate the people we are and have always been – with our personal dreams, perspectives, and qualities.
In fact, it is even difficult to love our own core dreams when so many things around tell us that there are other, better dreams to dream.
When you feel like this think of the time when you last were dreaming with confidence. Big dreams, small dreams but with ease, no noise in the background. I have realised recently that I was at my dreaming-best when I was 14. I don’t know what I was doing ever since, but it was the time when my map of dreams was the most personal to me, no fears, fads and fashion. In my little childhood village there are cereal fields next to my dad’s cherry orchard. Walking along the fields, I meet the 14-year old. She’s cheerful, hopeful and determined. Where were you when your dreams were unfolding? Maybe you can visit this place? Or create a semblance of it where you are now? To allow yourself to be you, maybe with fears but without disabling judgements.
How nice to hear you dear Alicja. This is amazing feelings, words, coming good to me too… Thank you, I am in village for summer days now, and happy more than in the city. And as always so beaıtiful photograph. Blessing and Happiness,
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I also find the sort of solace you describe in my childhood home. It is a strange feeling. A nice bath in nostalgia every once in a while is good for the soul I suppose.
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‘A nice bath in nostalgia’ – great way of describing our returning to childhood home. :)
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